December 2008
Yeah they say that misery loves company
I’m listening to Saving Abel - After All It’s catchy :)
I feel asleep before midnight last night. how the hell am I going to be able to stay up for New years!?
My dad started calling me at 8:30 am to ask me who sang which songs. Now, he’s called ever five minutes on the dot with a new song to ask. What the fuckk mannn!? So, I was cranky like a mofo this morning.
NEW...
Turn me on, let me feel you. Turn me on, let me...
http://flickr.com/photos/murdermachinex3/
Some new photography pictures from my trip. Not the best, and I don’t have my good Camera yet. Not until march. Ahhh, I’m excited!
Today, was fucking amazingggggggg! I’ve been gone for over a week. I didn’t get to see my friends or my boyfriend. So, I went to the movies with my boyfriend. We saw Yes Man. It was pretty...
A painful lesson learned is worth so much more.
My oh my, It’s been a while since I’ve been on here. I’ve been running crazy for almost three weeks now. Breakdowns, panic, car rides, crazy family. My past three weeks have been… out there. Good and bad, it combines.
I feel like things have changed in the small town…
I just got back home from my trip to Tennessee. I’ve been up there for the past week...
Do you remember when we were just kids, And...
Live for today, we’ll dream tomorrow We’ve got big plans in sight We’ll take this city, and by nightfall the bright lights are calling Everything is going our way Everything is just as we planned This is our future for what we’ve heard, and I’ve still got your hand And it feels like, we could last forever And I’m not doing this alone When memories fade,...
Pointless. :)
Today was amazingggg!
The past few days were shit, but today, everything changed. Wondering why? Meg’zz gots her self a boyfriend. :) Haha.
I’m working on homework. I think it should go suck someones dick. I really don’t want to do this. I lost my purple zebra, so sad. I wore purple pants today :)
This weekend is busyyy. Movies, paintball, soccer, repeat. ...
Oh I am unbroken; I'm choking on this ecstasy
Disappointment from a person you love is easily one of the worst things to go through. It’s forgivable when you care, and you can move on. When it repeatedly happens, a breaking point is reachable. It hits you, and there is no going back from it. No amount of apology brings it back to being okay.
Sometimes you’re not mad at the person at all.
Sometimes, you’re just done.
Someone who I’m...
Buzz Bake Sale 2008.
The best time I’ve had in months!
I sat around and listened to Avenged Sevenfold, Shinedown, Saliva, Atreyu, Red Jumpsuit, Saving Abel, and Pepper.
I don’t believe in the word perfect, but damn, it was pretty close to it. There’s no way I’m going to be able to hit here an type everything. There was mosh pits, piggy back rides, hookers ;) , Flashing, drugs, alcohol. ...
What hurts the most, was being so close...
Have you ever lied in bed at night, shaking, scared for you life? Afraid that you weren’t going to win this battle after all? The choice you choose would determined weather you lived or died. I felt like that yesterday. Everything was turning upside down on me. I couldn’t keep control of my emotions. I spent most of the night shaking, and crying in my room or under the soothing...
Take a cold hard look at yourself, it takes heart...
This week has gone from Bad, to good, back to bad. I went to school feeling empty. I really couldn’t feel any type of pain. Wednesday, was the best day ever. Today, was just hell.
I found out today, people are placing bets on if I’m going to hook up with someone on Saturday. I’ve had panic and axenity attacks all day. I can’t stop myself from shaking anymore. I hate this...
Lips are quivering like a withering rose
I haven’t been happier than I am now for the past few weeks. Things today were great.
I just feel in love with the song The Squeeze by Atreyu. :)
I’m going to run away happy now. I just wish I knew some more things….
The Squeeze
Sometimes it feels like the juice is just one, hell of a squeeze. I’m wringing it out my hands, drinking in my agony. I love this shit and I hate this shit, I need it just to survive. I’ve served my time, I’ve earned my keep, and now I’m taking what’s mine (And only I can stop me) So what is it that you were fighting for? Is it something that’s worth dying for?...
Unquechable I have become my own prey
From where has this rage been spawned? Been building deep inside for far too long Forgotten memories buried and hidden creating my own emotional prison
High School is hell. It’s hard to make new friends, and harder to keep the ones you already have. </3
My week has been crummy, and look, it’s only Tuesday! Great, isn’t it? Some of my ‘friends’ are pushing me...
& I just cant pull myself away.
I fixed things with Jaimie. That was the ONLY good part of My day.
I wish somethings weren’t so complicated. I wish to much. Everyday damn day. Blehh. I felt like I hit my low point last night and this afternoon. And both times, I hit the bottle. (sorry Mallory) It’s an evil addiction. Naps are also another addiction. Have to leave for practice. I’ll go crazy on this...